Life is so difficult..... It's going upstairs, and soon going downstairs..... That we call life..... People who did not know me will judge me accordingly through their own eye sight... For me, becoming ME is not too difficult... Sometimes, BECOMING ME is difficult to others... Sigh....
It's depend on how people will judge me.... I'm not taking seriously to rest my case..... Sigh.. Even though I'm seem to be that way, I am seriously serious taking my things serious.... Huh... Sigh.... So many serious to be typed..... It is true when BECOMING ME.... Sigh....
I tried to learn, tried to get seriously inbound.... But BECOMING ME will misjudge others perpectives.... Sigh.... It is the difficult sight to BECOMING ME.... Sigh.... I don't have power to make all people come and say "HELLO" to me.... I am what I am.... Born to be me.... Sigh....
I am seriously taking care the hate part of HATING ME.... It is just the ordinary way for HATING ME..... But TO LOVE ME is not the reason for HATING ME..... Sigh.... I have learned a lot of HATING ME... I understand why people keep HATING ME rather than LOVE ME.... But I do have friends who supporting ME to LOVE ME as well.... Sigh....
Do LOVE ME before HATE ME.... Knowing ME WILL JUDGE the jurisdiction between BORDER and COUNTRY... Sigh.... DO LOVE ME, JUDGE ME, HATE ME..... DON'T HATE ME, JUDGE ME, LEAVE ME.... People do change..... But change for what.. Change NOT BECOMING ME.... Sigh.... This is ME..... Living in the egois and naive world.... To understanding people WHO NOT BECOMING THEY ARE????...... Sigh.....
So NAIVE not becoming yourself but BECOMING OTHERS..... Sigh...... I do experience..... I had been HATED, I had been LOVED..... I HAD BEEN JUDGED for my own behaviour..... Sigh....
It's so PAIN..... Sigh...... Do try people HATED you for just a silly thing for not being serious.... Sigh....
Serious depend on the venue that will involve you... Sigh... Not all the time the thing have to be taken seriously..... I do love to be serious but DEPEND on how you want to be seriously.... I do pain for being accused for not being serious..... I am serious when become to serious discussion....
DIFFERENT PEOPLE.... DIFFERENT JUDGEMENT........Sigh......
I don't have place to speak this loud..... BUT do understand yourself before understand ME..... It is not difficult to understand me..... Even 40 years from now..... THIS IS ME.... Sighh...
My apologize to the people who are touched by my writing.... But, this is where I can express myself loudly without pain to anyone.... Sorry is the hardest word to say...... Sigh.....
